reality is tough

hey capriccio tonight was so awesome
i miss the time on stage

many have asked why i dont play anymore

i dont know why
i means i was never really good to begin with
but that shouldnt be a reason to give it up




the juniors really did put in 100% for this concert
which led me to think
how many times in life have i really gave my 100%

i mean, like it's one thing to have said i'm satisfied with this and not ask for more
but it's another to have this strong desire to have nothing less than what should be the best and strive to achieve it no matter what obstacles

we're often turned away by the immense amount of hard work required in many things
for example, studies
we know our limits and we are limited by it

just saw this quote on tumblr, "know your limits, but never accept them"
and it struck me particularly hard
just very recently e asked me if was satisfied with my Alvl results
i cant put what i felt in words
but its something according the lines of
i'm satisfied with the results
but then again i feel like i could have done much more

after being exposed to so many people who have overcome odds and changed their lives through hard work and pure, when i ponder about how i treated the whole Alvl thingy, i feel quite disappointed by myself. I am really truly lucky to have achieved such results.
how do i word it
ahwells

anyway point is, i need to stop letting emotions get the better of me
i need to man up and take control of what i really want in life and work towards it
i need to stop giving myself so much leeway and really push myself to achieve what i want
so yup, it is really not who i am right now but who i want to be, so yes clarice know what you want and not let what you are now limit you to what you want to be!!!