sharky

no one words it better than she does:

In the past few weeks, we had our last flagraisings - on the field, as a batch and as the band of 2012. It’s bittersweet, really. I’m glad that I’m finally able to concentrate on my studies (and to be away from volatility and human stupidity), but this really marks the end of 6 years spent in a CCA I’ve grown to love so much. 

This whole journey hasn’t been easy. It’s been tumultous, at best. I’ve had my ups and downs (and I’m not ashamed to say that my downs have almost pushed me to quitting band), but in the end, this is my life. Band has been forcibly pushed into my life and there is no running away from it. And a part of me is thankful for that.

For someone of my independence, I don’t like belonging to much things. It took a lot for me to stop skipping band practices and adhering to rules, regulations, and eventually becoming an administrator of such practices that I never used to condone. And yet, here I am. Stepping down as the ABM of HC Band ‘11/12 - I never would have seen this coming.

I don’t know if I have performed up to standard, both in terms of musicality and responsibility. But I know I have tried my best, and it is finally time to let go and have faith that they will be okay. It’s never easy giving up something that has become your life, and no matter how much I convince myself that things will be fine and prepare myself for the moment I no longer wield my attendance folder with me, it will never be enough.

But I guess as usual, it is time to stop dwelling on things and take them as they come. And it is time to be thankful, grateful and appreciative of all the good memories (because everything is better in your head).

We’ve come a long way. And this marks the end of so many things. But still, I will smile and be glad that it happened.